FROM THE MIND OF STEVE BAXLEYBy Steve BaxleyA Production of OJEDA Productions....NEW BEGININGS,A CONFESSION OF LOVE FOR A SPECIAL WOMAN 
>>>Elizabeth Barrett Browning wrote a poem called "HOW DO I LOVE THEE" about a young man's love for a beautiful woman that he has loved so much in his life,and would do ANYTHING to not lose her.>>>I have been a telemarketer,salesman,floor walker,stock checker,but none of these I wanted to dobecause it was not what I felt I could do, I didnt feel challenged, I felt confined,no direction,but also ..I let some golden chances go away from me,and break my heart in the process>>>I wanted to be on the radio, finally got that oppertunity and enjoyed it very much, but still while on the outside I was finally feeling great,and a new challenge opened up, on the inside I still felt empty, like although a dream was realized, it wasnt truly being accomplished.>>>We all have challenges to seek out and try to accomplish, but in some aspects, those challenges are frought with risks, and sacrifices, but still, the challenge IS there,the oppertunity is there, but like the proverbial "Needle in the haystack" YOU have to be ready to find that rare challenege that will give youthe creative freedom you need to survive and thrive in this climate of uncertanty...I have not found that challenge here in Jackson.>>>Now Jackson is a great city,no knock on them,its a quiet burg with its only fame being Michigan International Speedway and the infamous doctor death..Jack Kevorkian is in our equally famous "worlds largest walled in institution Souther Michigan Prison, where my dad worked till his passing as a nursing supervisor, sure we got wal-mart and some other great stores,but nothing else, well we are the birthplace of the republican party..like thats an accomplishment to be proud of
>>>As for the sure thing,while in my 40 years of life on this planet i have chased after the sure thing, I finally
caught it, her name is Maria Guadalupe Ojeda, she is a Television personality and for three years AND
CONTINUING this is the woman I want to spend some if not all my time left on this world with. She is
the woman who I have dreamed of for lo these many years,I have never felt this way before, there is but only one woman I want in my life, and PITA is that woman, and she knows it.
>>>My father,who after all is a gentleman who taught me well on morals and how to treat a woman right,
often told me this .. "Son, when you see,when you feel a sure thing, when both your heart and head
agree on what path to take, dont let her go, go after her and win her heart, let her know that you love
her and are willing to sacrifice EVERYTHING to be with her ,because..sure things only come once, and
if you dont hold on to it,you'll lose it and you'll be left wondering "What couldve been,What shouldve
been" and not "what its like" and you will live with the hurt of not knowing till you die."
>>>My dad has,even in his passing been a man of much sage advice...my mother on the other hand,
thats the opposite, just ask anyone.
>>>My lady left Telemundo on friday,to go back to Mexico,to develope some projects for TV, I miss her and wanted to call her to say that I REALLY LOVE HER,and would do anyting to make her know that.
>>>Sometimes I feel like I need to get out of this place i have called home for over 20 years, I didnt chose
to be here ,that was the choice of my mother and father, the only time I felt right was when i was away
from here, and somewhere else, I could breathe and be one with people who i didnt know,
To be liberated and free to create,to write , to move around without question,without hiding, to do what
I was destined to do.
>>>Sometimes you need to have someone kick you in the ass to realise the mistakes you made and to try
like hell to not repeat them, that person has been many, from cousins, nephews,and aunts, to a friend of
many years,but also ....a woman who I have deeply fallen for and care about very much, who has made
me realize that SHE is the sure thing I have to grab hold of, that she IS the one for me .
No other woman has made me feel like this ...EVER! and I dont want to lose her!
>>>She is who I want to spend the rest of my life with, but as my father said "when both your heart and head
agree on what path to take, dont let her go, go after her and win her heart, let her know that you love
her and are willing to sacrifice EVERYTHING to be with her ,because..sure things only come once, and
if you dont hold on to it,you'll lose it and you'll be left wondering "What couldve been,What shouldve
been" and not "what its like" and you will live with the hurt of not knowing till you die."
>>>So its is with deep heart that i say that to follow my heart and not to lose Pita, I must do what I can to
achieve this goal,to have total happiness, and the only way to do that is ...sacrifice what I never really
had, and to go for something I need to do.
>>>So I am announcing that I am putting the radio dream on ice FOR NOW, and instead seeking employment
with the federal government, maybe as an airport screener or writer, but now I know what I must do to
not let Pita go, she means more to me than I can explain.
>>>I might try "Podcasting" but that will come when the time is right, right now, my heart and head say
and agree with my father, I have to grab for this sure thing, and Pita is that sure thing, and whatever I
can do to win her heart, What sacrifices I must make ..I will take full responsiblity for,because she is
worth it! there is only ONE golden oppertunity a lifetime for total happiness,and Pita fills that hole,that
space in my heart that has felt so cold and unloved. I cant nor will I lose her..
>>>I made THAT mistake too many times, and have paid a hefty price for it, not this time,
and no one is going to prevent me from doing this, not even a 63 year old out of touch person
who thinks she knows the world..or ME.
>>>So now...how do I tell this woman, this goddess that I have fallen very hard for her that she does mean everything in the world to me, How do i tell this woman that I would do anything for her to prove that I am worthy for her heart ..
>>>Simple...
>>>Later folks, I have a job to apply for,questions to ask,AND A WOMAN'S HEART TO CAPTURE! my journey of fulfillment begins now
